Wintergirls is a story which
clearly speaks. Laurie Halse Anderson is a genius with voice. Her
style and experimentation with writing techniques ensure that Lia is heard and
understood properly by readers. It takes no stretch of the imagination to get
into Lia’s head; Anderson places us there immediately, and in the tumultuous
throes of her mind we remain, hearing even the thoughts that she unsuccessfully
attempts to hide from herself.
Each unique detail
included in Wintergirls is done with a very deliberate purpose
and in order to accomplish a specific goal.
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Because Lia is
struggling with anorexia, Anderson makes sure that readers dwell on numbers in
at least a slightly similar way. Each chapter is numbered with three digits, a
decimal, and two more digits – the way that weight is displayed on a scale.
This is a slight detail, but the choice to begin each section that way is a
constant reminder of Lia’s condition. The repetition of seeing numbers
displayed that way is a small parallel to the way that Lia obsesses over the
numbers that she sees on the scale. Repetition of numbers take on another
meaning as well because Lia is forced to dwell on the fact that she ignored the
33 calls that Cassie made to her phone the night before she died. Occasionally
throughout the text, the numbers 1-33 are written out, just to remind the
readers that this is a fact that is constantly on her mind; we require no other
explanation. The numbers become enough, and simply seeing them in a row
effectively evokes feelings of empathy in the reader.
002.000
…the words shrink in size and are aligned to the left when there
is something going on in Lia’s mind that she refuses to address but is being
plagued by… This
separation gives readers the feeling the subconscious mind at work. Many of the
phrases that are seen between ellipses are repeated throughout the text (thirty-three calls) and the content is
most often her dark fleeting thoughts about the death of her best friend,
Cassie.
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Included in these struck
through lines are the ways in which she truly thinks of the people in her life.
“My stepmother Jennifer;” “my stepsister Emma;” “my
mother Dr. Marrigan;” “the guard dog Nurse Melissa.” In
these examples, the crossed out lines are who these people actually are, but
following is how Lia addresses them either verbally or in her mind. The
difference between the ways that she thinks about her mother is particularly
significant. This small detail is enough to convey to readers that Lia feels as
though Dr. Marrigan puts her duties as a doctor over her duties as a mother.
Through the context of the story, readers learn more about their fractured
relationship, and this detail supplements those effectively.
There are other places
where strikethrough is used to express her famish and desire to enjoy food
again. The strikethrough in those situations represents Lia literally striking
these thoughts from her mind. She does not let herself even fully realize these
thoughts or desires that she has; they must be crossed out as soon as they even
briefly flit across her mind. “I am so hungry that I could gnaw off my right
hand.” “My traitor fingers want that fudge…They want to squish the
marshmallows and stuff them into my mouth.” “The doughnutbagels smell
heavenly plus sugar and I know what one taste would do.” These thoughts are
weakness to Lia, and she refuses to let them linger in her mind. Her struggle
is evident and is yet another piece that Anderson includes in order to draws
readers into her world.
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::Anderson/gives/readers/access
to yet another level of Lia’s mind by occasionally providing negative mantras
that play over and over in her head. The same one is repeated often.
“::Stupid/ugly/stupid/bitch/stupid/fat/stupid/baby/stupid/loser/stupid/lost::”
These moments appear when Lia is feeling or acting particularly
self-destructive. These strings of words, put together with slashes rather than
spaces, evoke a feeling of entrapment. They are listed in a cycle. Lia is stuck
between the words that she dwells on, and while they continue to circle around
her mind, she has no way to escape. To put that emotion into words would be a
less effective strategy; by providing this list for readers in lieu of bogged
down definitions of depression, readers feel what Lia is feeling from the very
center of her mind, rather than looking in on it from afar.
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In addition to playing
with form in order to more fully convey Lia’s experience to readers, Anderson
also includes powerful symbols and metaphors which blanket the whole novel with
the same feeling of hopelessness and entrapment that the above elements convey.
Anderson plays with the ideas of cold and warm throughout the book in
intriguing ways. Lia is always cold and can never seem to get warm enough.
While this is a realistic symptom of anorexia, it serves a deeper purpose
within this novel. Being cold becomes symbolic of being sick, dead, broken. After
getting a call from Elijah saying that he had a message from Cassie, Lia says, “I
put on one of Dad’s extra-large sweatshirts because I can’t stop shaking” (54).
Being cold becomes synonymous with feeling pain. After hearing the specifics of
the way that Cassie died, Lia thinks, “I am an iceberg drifting towards the
edge of the mapIf Lia finds warmth, she feels as though she will be well again.
While she does not actually make deliberate efforts to get over her anorexia,
rather, makes drastic attempts to apparently throw herself further into the
throes of it, her other actions reflect a deep desire to be well once again. While
she remains cold, remains a wintergirl, Lia cannot move on with her life.
Cassie and Lia stayed cold together. “We turned us into wintergirls, and when
she tried to leave, I pulled her back into the snow because I was afraid to
be alone” (99).
Lia knits. Knitting is
one of the only hobbies that Lia seems to still participate in, and often she
uses her knitting as a way to attempt to fix parts of her life. “I knit the
afternoon away. I knit reasons for Elijah to come back. I knit apologies for
Emma. I knit angry knots and slipped stiches for every mistake that I ever
made, and I knit wet, swollen stiches that look awful. I knit the sun down”
(263). She initially intends to make a simple scarf, but as her
condition worsens, she simply continues to crochet, and her creation grows and
grows, but is never big enough to keep her warm. Seeking warmth is equivalent
to seeking wellness.
When Lia attends
Cassie’s funeral, she does not feel cold yet, but this is because she has yet to
be visited by her ghost. “For the first time in weeks, I am almost
warm…The closer I get to the coffin, the hotter it is” (88). She feels as
though she may be close to breaking free of the anorexic trap that they have
been in, but this is clearly not the case when she begins to be almost
constantly tormented by the dead Cassie. She is plagued by the ghost, and it is
Cassie’s spirit that Lia feels is forcing her to remain within the horrors of
her sickness. Passages where Cassie is mentioned are often followed by
references to the cold that Lia feels. “We are here to share our feelings and
discuss a memorial to Cassie’s memory…The room is freezing” (77).
Good article! Thanks so much for the help! Also, Wintergirls is an intriguing novel that I would recommend to teens everywhere, whether or not you're struggling with the disorder. Great read!
ReplyDeleteI was reading this story for a unit in my senior english class. which is split into three separate groups and my group was mental Illness. I chose to read wintergirls and I am glad I did. it showed me all the struggles of what it's like to be trapped in your own mind. The story itself was so Intriguing. I could not take my eyes off of the book. I recommend this to anyone everywhere. Just to have a better understand and feel what she feels mentally by reading is crazy. Amazing read.
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